Memento mori

I'm writing this from my home in chorley, which a small typically northern town. Most of the houses are very uniformed and in this bleak weather are very bleak likewise. However as i live in london, which is in another world to chorley, i do miss the personality of it. The helpfullness of the local inhabitants and the little signs of appreciation that you recieve from a stranger, makes you feel valued and known.

As much as i love london you just don't get that there, even to break into a smile could be seen as an act of a crazy person. Its one of the most populated cities in europe if not the world, but yet i cant help but feel isolated and away from everyone.

At this point, i should tell the reader, that i'am writing this in a time that i have money (thanks to the government), so i have a whole world open to me, simply because i have money. I've learned in the few months i've been in london, that money is life, without this need, its imposible for one to be sociable as you need money to do the simpliest of things. I find myself turning down night outs and social events simply because i dont have any money. Money allows you to be happy, it gives you chance to move to places, see things, even be a student, without no money, the whole worry of a lack of it for me simply stops this passion to study.

if you know me well, you'll know that i'am a proud socialist, so you're probably thinking why am i expressing that money is the root of all happiness, and of course at the same time for evil too. To live in this world, to have lack of money means an ever-present consciousness of failure, above all it means loneliness.

This is probably a depressing read for many of you, but this is what we have to do in this society, money is the new religion whether or not we like that, there are two mantras with this new religion "thou shalt make money" and "thou shal work to earn money".

There are of course, things in life that do make you happy, and i fully know that, but you think of the things that do make you happy and i can gurantee that money is involved in that. I do, however know that a society without money, will just find another object to put extreme value on. But i object to the, huge yoke that money gives, why should you go into huge debts for getting a better life? for helping your economy, which eventually we will all be slaves to.

After all thats the whole point of being here, is to provide workers for the dirty machine that is the economy.

Well here endeth my rant, i guess thats life, and somehow i just got to get used to it, just like winston in my name sake book of 1984.