Matisyahu

Just thought to plug this guy, i love his sound, its so good! i really cant get enough of it at the moment!



Have a good day guys!

Summer time

I was thinking of my time in Texas last summer, and out there i met a truly wonderful women, it was a real good time, and i really liked her, but anyway i'll get to my point.

Before i break up for uni, i get my student loan, and was wondering whether i should fly out there and spend a summer with her, i hate getting attached to people, but she has always stayed on my mind and i just think i wonder what will happen if i go out, neither of us can really move on as we can't stop thinking about each other.

Sorry if this is sounding bit of teenage angst, even know i'm not a teenager, i just not so sure on what to do, i will think about it in the next few days.

Part of a unplanned story by me

I can feel myself slipping from this life, the storms are gathering, not in the world outside my bleak window but inside my mind. I lay in this room; all my life is in this one room in this one generic looking building.
The bleakness of this life has come to be prevalent, people rushing to control ones life to expect things of it. This anguish that has beset my heart, is turning it into a brittle piece of ice, I taste no sweetness that was once love. It has all gone, gone to the utter darkness of my mind.

I’ am, dear reader, an impoverished student of this corrupt world that we inhabit. I live from one day to another, trying like the rest of us not to communicate with anyone else that we see. The possibilities of meeting people that will run away with our feelings, that will give ones life meaning and love, enrich it beyond anything man can measure, is all lost within hatred and a deep fear of the unknown. I sit on the loud, dirty underground, looking at people who use all of their energy not talking. We are all in this darkness, only broken by glimpses of light. They sit on chairs next to one another; they try ever so hard not to break a smile or commit the worst behaviour ever and to talk. I feel lonely and lost in the most populated city in the country.

The grey skies that forsake this wretched piece of land has sunk deep into my heart, I’am in love, but I cannot taste that sweetness of love, the yearning for one another’s embrace has left. I remember the days were I loved regardless, I was joyful, my body tingled and felt truly alive, I look for a better future outside into the dank view of London.

Thinking about the future

Well, today has been a day of thinking about the future, i'm kinda contemplating doing a masters, so its all very adult like at the moment. you'll be glad to know i have resumed normal service with regards to my diet of chocolate peanuts, i just cant resist there chocolatly goodness.Ah you really wish you had my life right? kinda moving onto something a bit more differant now are some songs that i'm listening to at the moment : -
- Aimme mann - Real bad news
- Eskimo joe - London bombs
- Bob dylan - in my time of dyin
- Michelle blades - After words
- Phil ochs - William Moore

If only mcdonalds advertised like this, i know i have just brought the whole level of this blog down, but it did me a giggle and thats a good thing right?

Marriage, Haiti and london

Well this is my first post in about a weeks time, i have been awfully busy fraternising with friends and traveling to the land of the north.


This weekend was the wedding of my good friend joe mcmorn, it was a really nice wedding and just how i imagined it would be, i'm so happy that he's married, however a part of me just feels like its a part of my life gone, i know i'm still young in life, but i just cant help but think that i'm going to be the only one not getting to these major goals in life, is that normal or am i just over-thinking things again?

I have to admit i nearly cried a few times during the wedding, just to see a good mate whos been with you through thick and thin being so happy with someone is a great thing, oh well who knows what destiny has instore for me, but i do wish i could have a preview.





Onto my second part of my thought, last week i discussed briefly with some friends about Haiti, i was reading in a newspaper the other day about how the national debt for haiti is something well into the billion doller mark and how western countries refuse to wipe that clear for them, so they can build a succesful country, but yet easily help out some greedy banker, whos lost peoples jobs and got the country in the red. I just find it really sickening that leaders cant do that for humanity, instead rather doing it for bankers.





And thirdly, sorry guys for being so long this time, but i'm currently looking for places to live for next year, i have one in mind but i just don't want to pin my hopes on that, any ideas or suggestions would be rather good! oh and below is a picture made by my artistic friend called Angus Dick and a video i really like! so for now dear reader, sleep well..........................