War and love

I saw this image, or well a similiar one in the metro the other day, same context of a soldier crying as their fellow soldiers where repatriated. It struck home how wrong this war is and what its doing to our country. The reason why we're in afghanistan changes as does the seasons, at one point it was because we needed to liberate the stricken women and then it was to stop drugs.

Now its just becoming a killing fest for the taliban, all this is producing islamphobia, hatred and death and its just not nice. The worst thing is that young guys my age are being sacrificed for something that isnt going to work, its a real big tragedy in life that we as humans seem never to learn.

Well, i've been deeply in love dear reader with a girl i knew well, but things have happened and i think i'm losing my grip on things, its killing me, i loved her so much and i would give my heart 100 times over to her, we've just had an argument and she isnt answering are anything, i feel totally lost and stuck as what to do. I feel like i'm in a dark room and just have no way in getting out, maybe its onset depression that i've been feeling.

Either way i feel not myself, and this has been going on for a few months, i can talk candidly about this, as i'm not fussed about who reads this, the nights are often the worst, were my worries and anxieties haunt me like a curse, its like cancer, its slowly eating away at what i call "me". I just dont know what to do, i feel all the sadness taking hold of me right now, the black tar is engulfing me and i'm trying to keep my head above the water...........................................................