Saltwater

I never knew life could be such a total bitch, the cherry on the cake was today when i got robbed at church. Of all the places church would be pretty low down on the scale of things. okay they only took my card and student card, but its the straw that broke the camels back, to know someone has your identity its really horrible.

The guy went on a stealing spree, took someones laptop and phone, its the worst form of crime in my opinion, its not what i need at this time, life is so hard for me at the moment and to have this worry and burden its killing me.

I really want to have an adventure, go somewhere and forget about things, do something totally random and just be happy again, i really want to do that, so badly, just do something interesting, i look at other people's lifes and wonder if mine will ever be as interesting as theirs.

I just want to get away from london, this country just everything and live a little, i've figured london is a rude place, people really don't give a toss about the next person, there are certain things i would miss about london, one being the friends and two the fashion and music scene, but i just feel like i dont fit down here, i feel to sociable, i do wish i was still back in the 1950's where things seemed easier and rosier! okay that may be looking at things with rose tainted spectacles, but that thought is keeping me going.

At least i have decent friends and people who are actually really genuine around me, thats a good point, but even then i just see that somehow they will no longer be my friends as i feel like i irritate and disgust a few people. Why has life suddenly got a lot harder?

well for now dear reader, may you have the fondest of dreams..........................